I hate myself for hurting you.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

i felt extremely upset when you were with her.
but now that both of you are in this state,
i'd rather you go back with her, even though i really love you.
she's the one you love, and the joy of your life.
she's the one who can make you feel like yourself too.
i hope everything will go fine for both of you,
and i'd really wish you'll be able to know better.

Labels: i wish both of you all the best

I hate myself
for hurting you
10:54 PM

Thursday, June 21, 2007

why do you keep doing things to mislead me?
it makes me think you feel the same way about me,
like how i feel about you. but when you actually don't.
it makes me think of you day and night,
and suffer the fate that we can't be together.
you should stop giving me false hopes.
because everytime i thought i've forgotten you,
you'll come back and give me hope in thinking
we're possible, then drop a bomb on me.
do you seriously know how much that pains me?

Labels: i need you more than she does.

I hate myself
for hurting you
5:03 PM

Sunday, June 17, 2007

i said i wanted to let you go.
and that i wouldn't care anymore.
as long as its something to do with you.
but why can't i bring myself to do it when i saw your face?
stop treating me like this if you know you don't
feel the same way. seriously, i wish i could confess to you.
its so tiring to try to hide everything everytime.
but what can i do?
what can i do to make you feel the same way for me...
really, if only i could.

Labels: i wish i could.

I hate myself
for hurting you
1:04 AM

Saturday, June 09, 2007

no, its not the same anymore.
and i believe its not quite possible.
you walked out of my life when you told me things i didn't want to hear. but now you want to turn back? its too late.
and seriously, affairs of the heart doesn't go about like this.
you actually think of other girls as well.
so how can you prove everything you've been saying?
its not fair to me, and i hope you know it.

Labels: just stop hurting me.

I hate myself
for hurting you
5:31 PM

Saturday, June 02, 2007

no one can feel how i feel.
and so what if you think you like me?
thats only because you haven't find out about the fact.
i'm insane; crazy; mentally challenged.
thats what they all say.
and i'm reduced to believing it too.
i like you too, but i don't want anything between us.
not unless you know i'm like this.
and can accept the fact that my heart may change anytime.

I hate myself
for hurting you
10:20 PM